*updated* Gender is changeable, Sex is not...well how about that?

So tired...
How is this only week 4? I'm suppose to hit my stride around this time right?

Ok, work list for my own sanity:

1. 9/24 - Be off book for: August: Osage County Scene
2. 9/28 - ReRead/Annotate/Transcribe Notes: Judith Butler, Performative Acts and Gender Constitution, ¶'s 11-24
   (5 pgs)
3. 9/28 - ReRead/Annotate/Transcribe Notes: Aristophanes' Lysistrata
   (7 pages)
4. 9/28 - Read/Annotate: Text: al-Misri, (d. 1367) “Pilgrimage” (sharīʿa law book chapter)  Trans. N. Keller, 1994. Reliance of the Traveler, 297-370.
   (73 pgs)
5. 9/28 - Read/Annotate: Malcolm X (with Alex Hayley), The Autobiography of Malcolm X. Ch. 17
   (9 pgs)
6. 9/28 - Read/Annotate: Hammoudi, Abdellah. 2006. “Narrative of a pilgrimage.” Trans. P. Ghazaleh. A Season in Mecca. Chs. 5 & 6, pp. 94-141.
   (47 pgs)
7. Due 9/29, 10:00 PM - Write: 2 page Double Space Response with annotations on the above three reading assignments
8. Due 9/30 10:00 AM - Write: WESTERN THEATRE PAPER - 5-6 PAGES "Create a dialogue between Judith Butler's treatise on Performative Acts and Gender Constitution and Aristophanes' Lysistrata"
9. 9/30 - Read/Annotate: The Tale of Sir Launcelot and Guinevere, pp. 403-467
   (64 pgs)
10. 9/30 - Read/Annotate: The Death of Arthur, pp. 468-527
    (59 pgs)
11. 9/30 - Read/Annotate: Explanatory Notes, pp. 556-565
    (9 pgs)
12. 10/1 - Read/Annotate: Foley, "Medea's Divided Self"
    (24 pgs)
13. 10/1 - Read/Annotate: Case, "Classic Drag"
    (5 pages)
14. 10/2 - Read/Annotate: Testament of Cresseid, pp. 2-47
    (45 pgs)

Ok, maybe not so much sanity...but mental organization.
That's 141 pages to read/annotate by next Tommorow night folks...
Right.

Important/get done asap!

Not completed/due date passed

Completed/Done

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Ermergherd Blergh!

Coming to terms with going back to work.
I'm having a bit of a hard time being OK with the fact that, after 6 years of sleep deprivation, ungodly commutes, and the hardest academic challenges I've faced in my life up to this point, I'm not moving on right now. I'm stuck, in fact, to maximize my savings during my deferment, I'm most likely headed back to the same temp jobs I had before I decided to go to college. That my friends is depressing, especially when status updates and tweets tell me how excited everyone is to be moving on. I mean to say I don't begrudge anyone that, goodness no, but I feel like I'm the little kid next door in one of those after school specials, somberly looking on as my best friend drives away to their new home.

Actually, that is sort of literally what is happening in at least one respect.  I am losing probably my closest friend. In a little more than a week and I'm doing what I always do when I'm about to lose someone important. The conversations become shorter, fluffier...the friendship, through distancing, wanes and when she leaves its not all that hard. I have a good idea  she'll read this, but I don't think she's ever seen me in my systematic withdrawal.  Fuck. This stops now. I'm gonna see if she wants to do Korean one last time before she leaves.  Damn I will miss her.

I have my list (which I've ignored since graduation, to be honest) and I'm trying to stay focused on getting things done on that list, and possibly expanding it. A huge miss-communication about deposits on the part of the apartments we were supposed to be moving into, has left my roommate and I shafted on $125 and staying with family for the next month.  The bright side to this is that I think it will give me time to get some more work done on the memoir/biography I've been working on with my grandmother.  There's also been talk of traveling with her up to PA to see my brother this month. That's would be an immensely welcome change of scenery, to be honest.

• Volunteering for the Obama Campaign/Elections
• Get a job/Save money
• Develop lifestyle change that involves regular workouts
• Finish getting source material (interview/documentation), start first draft of Sands...
• Do some acting work
• Read a few good books and document them starting with:
   and 

Having a plan...or at least a general idea.
About the immediate future. I'm really not sure what to do, no option is glaringly better than the others. 
Things to keep in mind:

• The Beineke Scholarship
• Critical Language Scholarship
• Christianson Work Abroad Grant 
• Congress-Bundestag Youth Exchange for Young Professionals
• DAAD - Undergrad Scholarship
• National Geographic Glimpse Correspondents Program 

 

This could be a problem... 

Those temp jobs that feel like selling out and returning to a miserable past life...suddenly don't look so bad.  Time to get to work.

Might have a paying gig in Atlanta next week, for a major cable show...